The pattern of being made* to feel helpless and then the external validation of that helplessness and naming it so it never leaves u. *one might argue using the passive voice is blaming the external aka self inflicted helplessness aka patheticness, which I'm sooo obsessed with, here. I'm sorry! And that way u are no longer interested in the idea of changing urself which is possible but difficult and instead u move towards changing everyone around you Which is impossible but an indulgent fantasy and in ur mind a Noble Fight. I am starting to think it's an epidemic... the faux safety that ur inferiority complex gives u leads u to more danger than anything else, makes u malleable, makes u enjoy being small and helpless because you forget that you are SMALL AND HELPLESS. Makes you let everyone in because you think there's someone out there whose sole existence will revolve around taking care of u and protecting u and that very person is asking to come in. I'll never completely understand** why people are prone to giving their whole soul to 1 person Who is literally just some person. Like Believing 1 person can just fix like everything in your life . **I've done it before doesn't mean i will understand it.